Episode 6: Finding Myself

Reference: https://www.ryese.org/outbounds-2014-2015/

Après ayant une mauvaise semaine et une âme perdue, j’avais trouvé moi-même en ce froid jour avec la neige et le drapeau belge. J’ai trouvé la paix, les deux dans mon âme et dans mon cœur. Pour ça, je suis contente.

I found my peace. After soul searching for a while, I finally found my peace. It didn’t come to me until after a having one of the worst week of my life. I used to think that I was SUPERWOMAN. I can do all things as long as I have God within me, giving me the strength and courage to move the unmovable. It wasn’t until this past week did I realize that I am human after all. I realized that through being sick, having 30-35 hours of school a week, having changed families, integrating into the life of a Belgian student, and Rotary events; I need SLEEP! Without sleep, I am diminished from about everything. But through this very valuable lesson, I found that I am not invincible physically, but I am invincible mentally. Just one more hour, which turned into one more day, just one more day I would think and tell myself. I found that, I am human and I am allowed to make mistakes. By making mistakes, I can reflect and grow from them. I realized that I was too harsh on myself and that I do not need to be a perfectionist, I just need to be myself and give my best effort. I found my home here in this tiny country and that brought me peace. I found that I need to be fair with both others and myself and once I achieve that, I will have peace. I found that after accepting and loving my host families for who they truly are, I am at peace.